The meaning of sissy for my wife and Mistress

What is it to be not only submissive to your wife but also to be taken on a journey by her that requires you to become a sissy husband?  This aspect of my submission is not something I have desired or requested although I have always be strongly bisexual and have dabbled with cross dressing and wearing female underwear.  It previously played an occasional part in my sex life and then with my wife’s encouragement I experimented with full cross dressing and having sex with men whilst dressed.  It’s the sex that turns me on not any desire to become female as is the case for some tv’s/cd’s. 

My wife has always been stimulated by men having sex together.  She enjoys the thought, she will occasionally watch gay porn and masturbate, she certainly fantasises about me being fucked by another man or men. So sissy for her is a husband who frequently wears women’s underwear, particularly sissy knickers as they are called in our house, shaves smooth and has sex with men, in particular gets fucked by men.  The increasing intensity of my journey into submission to my wife, now my Mistress, includes a strengthening of her demands that I do this. The specific requirement by my Mistress is that this happens at least once a week and preferably more often. I am tasked to spend regular time making arrangements for this using online contact sites and there may be punishment if I fail to make suitable arrangements.

Instructions like ‘sissy knickers today’ and questions like ‘have you arranged to get some cock’ are common.  I am also required to give detailed accounts to my Mistress of what does happen at each encounter.

So do I enjoy it?  Yes more and more.  I get off on being a filthy mini skirted slut sucking on cock and taking it in my pussy.  The more I get the more I want, I am becoming the sissy husband she wants me to be.  By contrast sexual contact with other women is very firmly off limits for me and that brings me to the subject of cuckolding which is commonly equated with sissy.  Whilst it is true that my wife has had other men it is not a frequent occurrence although she makes it clear, and it is part of our written contract, that she has the right to do so if ever she wishes.  I of course as a good sissy would love to submit and suck on the cock of a guy who is just about to fuck my Mistress or has just done so, but such a think looks unlikely.  The focus is very much on me submitting sexually to men.