I am being punished

Unlike many other sissy husbands I am lucky in that I am allowed to cum fairly frequently.  But right now I am being punished by having this privilege denied for two weeks, I am almost half way through.

The reason for my punishment is that I have been dishonest with Mistress about detailed instructions given me by Master to humiliate myself in front of Mistress after each time he has had an online session with me.  Master has required me to masturbate and spunk for him, knowing that the most testing time for my obedience and submission is after I have spunked.  He has always told me to go immediately to Mistress after he has finished with me and humiliate myself according to his instructions.  My problem is that once I have spunked I am no longer horny and this is of course a test of my true submission. I failed to carry out these instructions, disobeying Master and deceiving Mistress.

Mistress’ control over me and my submission has developed significantly during lockdown and I realised that if my submission to Mistress is to be all encompassing I had to confess what I had done (or failed to do).  If I didn’t then it would be a lie, a game rather than the reality of our lives.  So confess I did.

Mistress is aware of my challenge after cumming and has on numerous occasions beaten me immediately after I cum to help overcome this.  Master is also aware of this weakness and in our face to face sessions before lockdown has worked at it, making me spunk earlier and earlier in a session and becoming increasingly demanding of me afterwards.  I have now sucked him off, taken serious thrashings, grovelled, crawled and humiliated myself in other ways after I have spunked for him.  It has certainly worked and I have become more submitted and obedient as a result.

On hearing my confession Mistress told me that she was pleased that I had confessed and that I would of course be punished.  The first part of my punishment was to confess to Master which I did at our online submission call last weekend.  Shortly before the call Mistress gave me a hard over the knee spanking with a leather paddle, she worked on my lower buttocks and upper thighs.  This had me yelling, after I had to kneel and thank her as always when beaten. Mistress now knew that I would receive explicit instructions from Master and was expecting my humiliation when the session finished. 

Master was pleased that I had been spanked and made me show him by red bottom and legs.  He told me that I would be thrashed when we next meet, that I did not deserve to cum but that he would instruct me to cum so that I could humiliate myself to Mistress afterwards.  My instructions after I stripped and spunked for Master were first to eat my cum while he watched and then to go naked to Mistress immediately the call finished, get on my knees in front of her and tell her how I had been humiliated and used by him during the call.

Mistress was downstairs in the kitchen and so I went to her naked, knelt in front of her and did as I had been instructed.  Mistress immediately sent me to bend over our dining room table, fetched her punishment strap and gave me a hard strapping.  I knelt and thanked her.  I was sent to get dressed and report back to her.  When I did she told me that I would be under tight control for the rest of the day (permission to be asked to do anything) and that I would not be permitted to spunk again until my next session with Master in two week’s time.  It is now almost the end of week one and my best solution is to avoid anything that is going to make me horny in the hope that I won’t become pathetically desperate before next weekend.  I have been banned from Mistress’ bed for most of the week and the lack of intimacy has helped.  Seeing Mistress naked does arouse me and as she has taken greater and stricter control of me my fantasies about serving Mistress sexually have become more vivid.  When I’m horny even the sight of her discarded underwear excites me.  So I’m keeping myself busy and distracted.  Mistress has of course instructed me to write this blog entry, probably knowing that just doing so will probably turn me on.